foggy

i need a nap. a long, undisturbed, rejuvenating nap. i haven't had a full night's sleep since baby D was born. i've been able to get away with it. days filled with mind numbing nonsense make sleepless nights doable. days of sesame street. blocks, legos, drawing, coloring. days of snacking and pajamas. strolling through Target. big decisions like Hot Tamales or Good & Plenties? 

until today. today was real life. the very real world of first grade. 28 of them. 28 to wrangle. 28 questions. 28 papers to pass out. and collect. 28 people wanting to go first. needing to be heard. 28 mini humans in a wiggly line. 

{them} bathroom trips, snacks, shoe laces, backpacks, contraband in the form of toys, water bottles, pencils, crayons, no named papers, noise. {me} pumping at lunch, non existence bathroom breaks, half a snack, diet coke, and incessant hand washing. 

it was {mostly} a success. i would probably do a few things differently if i had the day to do over. my newest friend, and thief, was my biggest challenge. i watched her like a hawk. sure to make my presence know. a new sheriff in town. unfortunately she one upped me in the last moments of class. she also used a few choice words today. she is officially my 'project'... well, one of many. 

so as the adrenaline wears off and as the dust settles, i've come to realize i need a serious nap. ryan and i have devised a plan. rotate nights sleeping in the trailer. i don't know if i can go through with it though. i love that sweet baby D... even in those wee hours.